I wanted to Share this verse

Trust in the LORD with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.

Proverbs 3:5–6

My dad gave me this verse to hold close when I left home and ventured off to Australia to travel and find who I was as a person. He told me that this verse would give me much comfort and when I was scared and not knowing what would come next, to think of this and everything would be okay. Well there were many days and nights where I was unsure of what was to come. Each time I said a small prayer and read the verse and felt such a ease of uncertainty.

Well I received this verse in an email the other day, and it made me realize that I really need to put all my trust back in God. It was easier to do so in Australia because I had nothing/nobody else to rely on but now I have family, a husband and many others. This is not what he wants. He wants all my trust to be in him, "seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." I have been getting so stressed lately and just wanting a baby so bad, but I know that he already has all that planned out and when it is the right time, Joel and I will be so blessed. Lord we trust in you and look so forward to the day you bless us.

Today is 13DPO and I had a huge temp drop this morning, along with cramping so AF is on her way. But I feel at peace and I really look forward to the next cycle.

11 DPO

Well I caved in and tested today, bad idea as it was NEGATIVE. I hate seeing that, it is like a smack in the face. I was really hoping this would be our cycle and I thought it was due to all the heartburn, bloating, gas, constipation and huge sore boobs. I have never had phantom symptoms like this before. I know it is still early but still

I have a serious hate...

For the 2ww. I am only 8 DPO right now and am going insane. I was really hoping my temps would go up this morning but they went down again. I don't really know which way to take this as usually my temps take a nose dive right before AF but apparently not this time. Oh and the phantom symptoms are completely different than previous cycles, such as heartburn, fatigue, tender BB's since just after O, and dull cramps. I have never really experienced heartburn in my life before and it sucks. Definitely a symptom I could live without.

My last LP was 10 days, if it is 10 days this cycle than this would be the shortest cycle I have ever had, I am thinking it will be more like 13 days. We shall see, either way if AF doesn't come by Monday I am going to break down and test.

The First Day of Fall

Fall is absolutely my favorite season. I love everything about it, but here are my 10 favorites..

(1) Wearing sweaters, boots and jeans

(2)Taking walks in the evening, with Joel and just breathing in the crisp air

(3) The smell of wood furnaces in the air

(4) The leaves changing colors

(5) Curling up on the couch under blankets

(6) Slippers

(7) Candles

(8) Picking out pumpkins at the pumkin patch

(9) Hot Chocolate with whipped cream on top

(10) Thanksgiving

It's been a while...

Since my last post, almost 1 month. This last month has been very busy. It was filled with trips, school and work. I'll start off with our trips. 

Joel and I went to Maui for our first year anniversary, It was so beautiful. We had the greatest time. We went snorkling, to a luau, relaxed on the beach and even woke up at 1:30 am to drive 3 hours to the top of Haleakala to watch the sunrise. We loved every minute of our vacation, it was just so wonderful to be together, just the two of us, with no phone or internet or any distractions. 

We got back on Sept. 1 which was two days before we started school. Joel is going back to school for the first time since highschool which was 8 years ago, he is taking an electrical program. We will both be finishing within a month of each other which is perfect as we will both be ready to take off on a new adventure. We are both so excited to see what is in store for us.