Thursday, November 27, 2008

Cardboard Testimonies..

This video makes me so emotional every time I watch it, It is such an inspiration. I hear so many times that there is no God, if there was why would he give me cancer, or let my mom die, or not let us have children. After watching this video, it shows me that God isn't punishing you he is preparing you and teaching you lessons.

1 John 4:4 says "He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world" meaning God already has your life planned out. He is the one who will cure you from cancer, he is the one who will give you children, he is the one that will turn your life around from drinking, drugs and rock and roll. He may us another person or medicine to help, but it is him that does this.

I leave you with a question,

What would your cardboard testimony be?

Monday, November 24, 2008

Here we go again..

On to our next cycle. AF has finally stopped and we are ready to get down to it. I am really excited, more than I was for any other cycle. I am not exactly sure why, I am hoping it is a good thing and I don't end up getting a BFN right before Christmas, how devastating would that be. I am not sure yet if I will try anything different this cycle, other than more sex. I may try the pineapple core after O since I already love pineapple anyway. I'm being optimistic and hoping this is our last cycle. Only 24-26 more days to see what happens. This is going to be a long month.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I've been tagged...

Thanks Alma,

Describe each in one word:

Where is your cell phone? Key Stand in Kitchen
Where is your significant other? Still in bed
Hair color? Brown
Your mother? Loving
Your father? Strong
Your favorite thing? My Hubby & Fur baby Finley
Your dream last night? That my exam was canceled because of the winter storm, it came true

Your dream/goal? To be a stay at home mom
The room you’re in? Computer
Your hobby? Scrapbooking
Your fear? Not being able to have children
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Happy, with hopefully two children and another dog

Where were you last night? At bible study
What you’re not? A Party Girl
One of your wish-list items? A Baby
Where you grew up? A small fishing community
The last thing you did? Checked my emails
What are you wearing? Sweats
Your TV? I watch too much
Your pet? My baby
Your computer? I am on too much
Your mood? Starving
Missing someone? Yes
Favorite store? R&W Co
Our summer? Was not that nice this year, few beach days
Love someone? Absolutely
Your favorite color? Red, black, royal blue
When is the last time you laughed? Yesterday
Last time you cried? Tuesday night

I'll pass it on to Raskind

Friday, November 21, 2008

Here we go again...

Well AF showed up last night so we are on to our next cycle. I am actually quite excited right now. I am really hoping this is the lucky one and we will get a wonderful Christmas surprise this year. What an amazing present that would be.

The last two cycles DH and I were both sick and didn't BD as much as we should of, so let's hope this is an illness free cycle and we can get right down to it.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I wanted to Share this verse

Trust in the LORD with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.

Proverbs 3:5–6

My dad gave me this verse to hold close when I left home and ventured off to Australia to travel and find who I was as a person. He told me that this verse would give me much comfort and when I was scared and not knowing what would come next, to think of this and everything would be okay. Well there were many days and nights where I was unsure of what was to come. Each time I said a small prayer and read the verse and felt such a ease of uncertainty.

Well I received this verse in an email the other day, and it made me realize that I really need to put all my trust back in God. It was easier to do so in Australia because I had nothing/nobody else to rely on but now I have family, a husband and many others. This is not what he wants. He wants all my trust to be in him, "seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." I have been getting so stressed lately and just wanting a baby so bad, but I know that he already has all that planned out and when it is the right time, Joel and I will be so blessed. Lord we trust in you and look so forward to the day you bless us.

Today is 13DPO and I had a huge temp drop this morning, along with cramping so AF is on her way. But I feel at peace and I really look forward to the next cycle.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

11 DPO

Well I caved in and tested today, bad idea as it was NEGATIVE. I hate seeing that, it is like a smack in the face. I was really hoping this would be our cycle and I thought it was due to all the heartburn, bloating, gas, constipation and huge sore boobs. I have never had phantom symptoms like this before. I know it is still early but still

Thursday, November 13, 2008

I have a serious hate...

For the 2ww. I am only 8 DPO right now and am going insane. I was really hoping my temps would go up this morning but they went down again. I don't really know which way to take this as usually my temps take a nose dive right before AF but apparently not this time. Oh and the phantom symptoms are completely different than previous cycles, such as heartburn, fatigue, tender BB's since just after O, and dull cramps. I have never really experienced heartburn in my life before and it sucks. Definitely a symptom I could live without.

My last LP was 10 days, if it is 10 days this cycle than this would be the shortest cycle I have ever had, I am thinking it will be more like 13 days. We shall see, either way if AF doesn't come by Monday I am going to break down and test.