Updates

Well this cycle I have been more than relaxed, I rarely temp which I am sure I will hate later on but for now it seems right and it is much more relaxing. Last night I noticed small amounts of EWCM. Seems a bit early for it but I will totally take it. Today I have been having cramps off and on, whatever that means. I am starting to think I may have a cyst on my right side which will likely make it a bit hard to determine O pain. I have been monitoring this new development and likely will wait it out a bit more, unless the pain intensifies. Right now it is more like a dull/burning feeling that gets worse when my bladder is full, I lay on my side or when I exercise.

On the exercise front. I lost 4 lbs last week, and today is day one of marathon training. I am a little scared as to what I will feel like tomorrow. Wish me luck :)

Cycle #10

Well a year has past since we first started TTC but only 10 cycles. It was quite hard to think about that over the weekend. The month we first started TTC, Joel's brother and his wife started trying for their third and got KU their first month. They now have a beautiful 5 month old. It is quite crazy to think I could have had a 5 month old by now but I haven't even gotten PG yet.

On a good note, I didn't cry over it this cycle. I think I am done crying over it, which is good I guess. I am slowly becoming more bitter though.

I have decided I need to put my mind on something else and made the decision yesterday that I will start training for a half marathon. The marathon is at the end of October so I have a little over 6 months to get in shape for this. I have always wanted to run a marathon and what better time than now. If I do happen to get KU before than, then I will obviously not continue with this but in the mean time I think it will be great to get my mind of TTC and give me something else to look forward too.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!

Well I wanted to wish everyone a very happy St. Patty's day. I won't be able to celebrate tonight as I have too much work to get done but that is okay.

about my cycle:

After a temp drop the day before my temp rose today, I really wish this was a good sign but I am very skeptical. I have also been getting cramps today, so I am starting to convince myself that this is not our cycle.

Tough Day

Well I woke up this morning and decided to take the day off from school. I really have so much work to do and at the top of my list is a 10 page paper that is due tomorrow. I had 2 pages done as off last night. I had phoned my boss from last summer in hopes of getting back on and working there this summer. The deadline for the application was March 31,2009 but apparently they already have all of their interviews booked. This really pisses me off, If I had of know that I would have applied earlier. Why would you say the deadline is March 31,2009 when it is only the first week of March and you have everything already booked. I am quite upset as it was my favorite job, EVER, and I really wanted to do it again this summer. So then I got a little depressed, and then fearful as now what am I going to do. I graduate University in 1 month and I have nothing lined up, I also have no time for the next 3 weeks to try and line anything up. I am a little worried. So now here I am trying to get this stupid paper done. I now have 5 pages, I am halfway there.

What I have to do this week:

1. write a 10 page paper on Food service Management
2. write a 10 page paper on DHA in Children's brain development
3. put together my children's book
4. finish my tutorial on cystinuria
5. Put together my turtorial
6. Finish staff evalutations
7. Write a paper on my detailed program plan
8. Read the book The Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe
9. I am quite sure I have left out a few more things, arghh

Free Giveaway

One of my fellow GP'ers designs super cute earrings and sells them on Etsy.com. They are very reasonably priced and super cute. Check out her blog finding the link on the right hand side of mine, The Lucky Mrs. T. She is even giving away a free pair, but hurry the deadline is March 10!!

Finley's Afternoon Walk

Finley and I went on a quick walk this afternoon because it is -25 degrees out and it was very icy. Here are a few pictures:



Finley taking it all in



A poor tree after the ice storm



A view of our road

Frustrated

I am so frustrating with Joel. I believe I O'd today and we have not had sex since Sunday. Monday- he was too tired, Tuesday- he wanted to do it after hockey so he wouldn't tire himself out, I'm pretty sure you would be more tired after playing a hockey game but anyway. He promised he would be home at 11 and that we wouldn't do it than, at 11:30 he was still not home so I went to bed. At 12:30 he wakes me up saying he was home, I was so pissed and beyond tired and he stunk from playing hockey, by the time he was out of the shower I was asleep again. Than last night I said we really need to I have EWCM and I am pretty sure I am going to O soon so he says yah okay once the hockey game is over I will come to bed. Well I was super exhausted and went to bed a little after 10pm because I had class from 8:30-3:00 than a meeting until 4 and than I worked until 9:30. So I had a long day, I just wanted to cuddle with him and have sex and go to bed and all I got was go to bed. He came to bed long after I had and I was asleep. This morning I said it is really important that we do it, his response: I only have 20 mins to get ready, I said well get yourself ready while in the shower that way when you come out you are ready to go, that didn't happen. He got ready to go and left me there feeling frustrated and ready to cry. It makes me so upset, he knows how important it is and it seems like this week it isn't important to him. I asked him what is wrong and he said nothing and just blames stuff on everything else. GRRR

Woot!!

3 lbs lost last week, I had really hoped for four but I will take the 3lbs.

An Update..

Just a little update about my brother. He is doing well, finally out of bed. He hasn't left the house yet but he feels quite a bit better today and his pain is starting to ease up. Thank you Lord, for his amazing blessing.

Well I am gearing up to O, I have had O pains today and wet CM, I am hoping I get some EWCM starting tomorrow.